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20 December 2011 @ 05:55 am

By the end of the month, I'm going to have cleared 90% of my entries. Why? Because why the fuck not. I'm not going to make a new journal and go through all that refriending bullshit because let's face it, it's not worth the trouble for something I barely use anymore.

I'm going to clear all those entries that have upset me, upset others, that have mostly been embarrassing, etc. All gone. But I'll keep writing and such. There's just so much baggage with a journal with 300+ entries. Fuck the baggage, bye baggage.

Since I probably won't post again before Christmas, Merry Xmas all. ♥

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13 December 2011 @ 04:17 am

Here's the thing about passive aggression and non-confrontational people: they don't mix. Sure, they can be one in the same, and I admit I'm passive aggressive myself. Having people be passive aggressive at me? Yeah, that doesn't work, sorry. If you want me to come to YOU by being PA at me and saying shit-all to me about what the problem is, well, I don't know what you're expecting to get from a non-confrontational person. The logic is failing, and you're only making the situation much more difficult.

I hate fighting. I hate worrying. I hate worrying about fights, but most of all, I hate worrying about fights when it's my fucking finals week. I don't need this shit, and people need to stop making my life ass when I don't need the extra stress because I've already cried this week about school. If anybody gives me a panic attack, I swear to fucking god--

The last fuck I give just threw up its hands and walked out the door.

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10 December 2011 @ 07:13 am

It's 7 in the morning and I don't give a shit about no header.

I should be sleeping, but I was craving iced caps when I remembered I wanted to write about my term two schedule. But before that: I'm behind on finals. Kinda. My Flash is fucking awesome (it's an animated typography of the Snow White trailer), I dread my A&V (the entire thing is me becoming increasingly paranoid about an impending zombie apoc), and... there's shit I haven't started. Oh, and I didn't do my Photography final. Bye 30%.

Term two classes are as follows: Greek Mythology, Design and Authoring II, Rich Media Applications, Web Publishing, Motion Graphics, Dynamic Scripting for the Browser, DSLR Photography II, and Multimedia and Design II.

I sadly will have two profs I dislike, NOT WANT. And my schedule is fucked -- I have no days off, but my classes are spread randomly throughout the week. Like 9-12 on Monday, then Tuesday 4-6, three classes Wed, one 5-8 on Thurs, and then two on Friday. Wtf is this. Change that shit up.

And I just learned there are 36 species of wild cats. I could only name 14 off the top of my head. Have a Pallas cat. brb iced cap.

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05 December 2011 @ 06:20 pm

I wish I had a way to explain why November is my crash month. Every November since junior high, which is a good 9 years ago, my drive to complete assignments, study, attend classes, or even get out of bed has plummeted to pathetic levels. In grade eight, I skipped a total of two weeks in a semester. I skipped so much Biology in high school that I had to drop out of the class. My marks suffered. People's trust in me dwindled.

Right now my marks aren't suffering, but they will in a few days time. I just wish it was easier to get out of bed. In this program, it's less about getting to class than it is rolling out of bed and onto my computer to complete assignments. But it's hard. It's really fucking hard. I'm sleeping so much these days at inappropriate times, getting to the point where my body is sore but I still can't muster any strength to remove myself from bed.

Couple this with getting backlash over a game that is supposed to make me happy, this fall is kind of shitty. I need this game. And I need a pick me up right now.

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20 November 2011 @ 11:57 pm

"I put this battle in a box with my military thoughts."

♥ Term is over in less than a month. And I have seven final projects, joy of joys. School is over on the 16th, I think, which would normally make me go HOOLAY I HAVE TIME TO BUY PRESENTS only my family doesn't want presents... again. I get that Xmas isn't just about presents. But without presents and no Christmas tree? Where is the Christmas spirit.
♥ I have booze. That deserves its own point.
♥ I'm meeting Sarah Slean on the 29th~ and I have an autographed poster from her propped up against my wall.

In other news, since getting HBO and The Movie Network, my mom and I have been watching more things. It is a little shocking that I do indeed get away from the computer sometimes. But I've seen the following things:

In Time: It's actually good! I know, Justin Timberlake. But ahhh Amanda Seyfried.
Sucker Punch: Okay I didn't finish it, got like halfway in. SO BAD.
Hanna: Saoirse Ronan is badass.
All Good Things: Kirsten Dunst can't really act, but hello Ryan Gosling.
Takers: ... I cried, okay.
Leap Year: I somehow always just catch the last half. It's... it's not that bad.
Pirate Radio: My mom said it was just "okay" but I think otherwise.

To watch:

Attack The Block
The Girl With The Dragon Tattoo trilogy
Pelican Blood
The Town

By the way, all of you should watch Cell 211.

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08 October 2011 @ 11:36 am

I am a happy little critter. ♥ I got my OSAP money in, and deciding I'd spend a good chunk on it for a PS3, I went out and bought a PS3. Also ended up getting one half-off DA: Origins and a new copy of Heavy Rain, though I may see if anyone sells HR at my mom's work so I can return this. Only $30, but ehh, if I can get it for half price used, I'm cool with that.

And if anyone wants to re-add me on AIM, my name's changed to pinup saint. I MISS A LOT OF YOU, TALK TO ME IF YOU'D LIKE.

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23 September 2011 @ 09:04 pm

i am a girl, i'm gonna capture the world. ♫


Hello, I love you. ♥
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11 September 2011 @ 05:41 pm

WOAH HELLO. I realized I have not updated anything about my visit to France and Hungary, and that is a shame because I have so much to say and not enough patience. Hence, I will put shit into jot notes and hope I don't forget anything.

france & hungary 2011!Collapse )

Okay, and then I started school last Tuesday. I go to and from class with my heart beating fast from the excitement, even after a long day. I go there happy, I leave happy. So far so good. Love my profs and my classes. And I'm seeing Lights this week at school. ♥ Oh, and I have bipolar personality disorder. Great. The shrink I saw more or less confirmed it, and put me on Abilify. Fingers crossed it works with my Pristiq? And I got into "A Song of Ice & Fire" and Game of Thrones, nommmm. We got HBO Canada so now we can watch GoT (and True Blood) in HD on our beautiful screen.

UMMMMMM I haven't checked my flist in err, over a month so please tell me what's up with your lives? ♥♥ I promise I'm interested to know.

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06 August 2011 @ 05:02 pm
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04 August 2011 @ 12:01 pm

"Nothing's gonna change my world."

The last week and a half have been bad, but since V came home, it's been a little better. And now with Friday coming up, I can look forward to my first job interview in years and my class schedule coming out. Things are looking up, especially with me leaving for Paris in six days, so fingers crossed that no more roadblocks fall in front of me for me to trip over.

I've been doing something every single day for the last half a week, which is strange for me. Being out of the house isn't, but being productive is. If everything works out, and my vacation and birthday go unspoiled, August will have been a damn good month.

One day I'll learn positivity isn't so bad.